Phoenix Mystic School – Participants experience

Great Mother House · 17 August 2025

 

I felt called to join the Phoenix Mysterium because it worked on healing sexual trauma and freeing up energy. I wanted to be more connected with the wild power in me without all the fear around sexuality. The Phoenix Mysterium brought me so much more than that. I had the opportunity to hold people in their deep processes, staying present with them, breathing with them, creating a space where all their emotions could be expressed. I received the same presence and support for my own processes. During the retreat, energy built up and flew through my body and I felt so connected with my womb and heart. By the end of the retreat the joy and lust for life were abundant in my system. For me that was the sexual awakening: feeling how lust for life radiates through my body and can be shared with an open heart in the world. My body and everything I do is an expression of gratitude for life. Why hide that? Why stop celebrating life? That feels so much more right than putting your energy in societal boxes.
 
Embracing Underground brought me deep insights into some deeply rooted unconscious patterns that were doing me harm in the long term and were blocking me from feeling this beautiful aliveness that I experienced in Phoenix Mysterium. I am amazed about how much can come up during bodywork. The preparation exercises and rituals to bring these parts of yourself into expression and into the light are very well thought through. I have never been so deep inside of myself before. I became better at observing myself in my daily life, recognising specific sensations and emotions that would have dragged me to my Underground in an unconscious way before. Today, I can feel them, see them and stay equanimous, even though that is still quite a challenge sometimes. My relationship with myself and others changed for the better. Even months after the retreat I feel the changes are still ongoing. It was and still is such an interesting exploration of my mind experienced through the body.
 
Entering the Cosmic Body was a perfect way to integrate the Phoenix Mysterium and Embracing Underground for me. The cycle wouldn’t feel complete without this last part. For me, this module brought me out of my head and more into surrender. Trusting that the universe, my cosmic family takes care of me, and they did. Every partner I worked with came at exactly the right time and they gave me exactly what I needed to open up my heart and womb. By the end of the week I experienced tantric sacred union for the first time in my life. I have no words for how to describe that. I left the retreat feeling connected with myself, the universe, feeling a new kind of softness in my body. My body literally feels different, softer. And it is still working. I feel a lot of gratitude for the work Dechen and the team deliver in these 3 modules. They created the space in which I could give and receive so many gifts.

Ann-Sofie, 2025 edition